Do you ever feel like you just need a win?
Fingertips skating across the keyboard, I was relaying to a close friend an abridged version of my series of unfortunate events that had transpired over the past week:
- Deep disappointed in some of those closest to me
- Invested time, money, and sweat that all seemed for naught
- Disturbing, stressful, nightly dreams that left my heart hammering
- Unfinished projects, delayed once more
- Constant notifications of increasing bills
And to top it off, I woke up to discover my first yellow pepper, shy a few weeks from harvesting, had developed blossom-end rot overnight. It had to be cut from the vine and buried in the trash. Sad sauce.
As I was wrapping up my account, I typed, “Ugh! I just feel like I need a win.”
But before I knew it, my thumbs kept moving, typing up a truth deep inside me: “But also, there are wins all around me. Like, all around. I’m just choosing not to see it.”
My circumstances had been less than desirable, though undoubtedly not as devastating as other people’s realities. I spun the steering wheel around in my brain and thought about the wins I couldn’t see because I was too distracted by my temporary state of being:
- I woke up this morning
- I’m relatively healthy
- I live in a place where I can freely worship
- I have friends and family who love me
- I have a roof over my head
- I have food on my table
- I have clothes on my back
And even if none of these were my reality, I have the greatest win of all: A loving Father who gave up everything to pay the price on my head, just so He could walk this dusty road with me in personal relationship, my hand clasped in His.
If Jesus chose not to fix my current, temporary circumstances, would just having HIM be “win” enough?
I pray my answer to that question will always be “yes.”
Will yours?